Brandon C. Jones

A Piece Of My Life

Brandon "C Fresh" Jones — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 18:31:54 +0000

It’s vaguely 7:30 am in the morning and the sun light is shining off the car dashboard. I’m wrapped in two sea foam green towels and an exquisite wool blanket I treasure as my only luxury. My head rests on a ripped netted laundry bag of dirty clothes and my feet and legs are uncomfortably placed in a curled up position. Light moves across the dash to my melancholy tired face and I begin to stir in the backseat. As I begin to inhale the surrounding atmosphere, my nostrils and mouth are filled with the smell and taste of unleaded car fuel. I scramble to open the back door so I may not gag off the leaking gas fumes and within seconds find myself standing in the middle of the wet winter street. It is cold outside and my body is extremely weak from the restless night in the backseat of the broken down Lexus. I stretch my body, take a glance at my watch, and stroll slowly toward the trunk of the car. While digging through its contents in search of clean clothes, I cannot help but feel tears rolling down my face. Finally reality hits me, helping me see what my peers and family were trying to tell me. In this moment right here I come to realize my actions, which to me were no big deal, were in fact my demise. Being homeless at the age of 18 I realized I was no longer focused and my life was headed in the opposite direction from my goals.

Sexual Music Monday

Brandon "C Fresh" Jones — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 03:45:01 +0000

TREY SONGZ I BLAME YOU!!!!! YOU STARTED MY SEXUAL VIDEO AND SONG WAVE ON MY TUMBLR LMAO!!
YOU WILL STAY BANGIN ON THE IPOD & THE COMP
WONT LET NO GIRL KEEP ME FROM ENJOYING YA SHYT MAN
YYYYYYYUUUUUUUPPPPP!!!!!!

lelotp247.tumblr.com
take a look

Essays and Poetry In The Future

Brandon "C Fresh" Jones — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 01:31:51 +0000

Hey wordpress word do you miss me lol
anyway i will be coverting this page into my poetry and essay board very soon. I feel it is only right to do so as this is more of a bland serious site. If you would like to see my daily quotes music choices and rants against deceitful women hit my tumblr page
lelotp247.tumblr.com
also follow me on twitter @lelotp247

Im guaranteed to make you laugh, cry, smile amd so much more depending on my day! lol enjoy!!

Next blog will be about me being homeless and learning from its experience!

Biting My Tongue

Brandon "C Fresh" Jones — Mon, 01 Mar 2010 06:02:36 +0000

Ive been holding my tongue due to a talk with my lil sis reminding me of my own teachings as well as reading proverbs….
it is so hard to walk the way of the righteous but I’m glad I got real peoples to help keep my mind on track. It’s funny how the truth gets exposed in due time though.
Like I said in my essay everybody out for there own and temporary happiness.
Anybody can be successful nowadays but how many can say they are truly happy at the end of the day.

Sorry For The Neglect

Brandon "C Fresh" Jones — Mon, 01 Mar 2010 02:34:30 +0000

Sorry I have neglected you lately wordpress but i have found tumblr to bring about more of my happy side of life lately… no deep emotional writings 2day but im sure there will be some to come in time…
For now watch me smile and revamp life to a higher level on tumblr!!!!

What A Nice Day

Brandon "C Fresh" Jones — Sun, 28 Feb 2010 22:11:10 +0000

I guess I woke up on the right side of the bed today. Had a wonderful night just had a wonderful meal… shit I’m feeling good. About to dedicate my evening to some beautiful music, a lil hw, some party planning, and of course my writings, poetry, and lyrics. Inspiration seems to surround me now and my mind state is on a success tip lately. My heart has its medication for now so pain is of no further dilemma for the time being. I have a feeling in due time the right person will come around or come back, who knows. Communication is the key there, and honestly I’m being open with all now while also using silence as a tool as proverbs would request. Say what needs to be and bite your tongue on the extras. Some people are not ready for the truth. It hurts to much.

BUT…. other than that things is nice. The hustle is creeping back, school on deck, fam is cool as hell, friends are around, life is simply good!!!

Now I am trying to share this happiness!!!! Of course with the fam like lastnite, but also with a she. Who shall she be?

The Queen Of Hearts

Brandon "C Fresh" Jones — Sun, 28 Feb 2010 11:04:20 +0000

Funny she does not deny a mister Finn.
As for time wise i was ready with patience however even though I was miles away all I needed was 1 min to get a text saying imy or I think of you although i am busy 2day. But that min went to another man, another friend, another moment if driving. Am I to play fool in this musical dance. I am to bide by your time. A relationship takes 2 to work it out.
I juggled school, taking care of my godbro & sis, tending to my sick mothers needs, house work, party planning, fantasy girls, lyrical Ent, pure entourage and more than my plate could sufice. Yet every morning I made an initive to send that text wishing you a great morning or a good night sleep. While a response wearily came back as ok. Yet a another man or should I say Finn got a hardy response back. Also I remember taking and inititive of busting a 4 bus wait I mean a 6 bus mission to see you. Seems 1 sided or am I wrong. Time is of the essence indeed, but what essence you choose to receive from time is always yours. 1 min is not hard to come by…
There is so much more to say Camille that you have lead yourself to get caught up in too but no need to go there. I’m not here to be your enemy or envy you in any way. Like I said you have a beautiful mind, but watch how you use it’s power. Abuse of it’s beauty brings out the ugly and you are starting to hurt those around your dear from me even to people who look up 2 you.
I do understand you Camille and where you come from but I am still a yr ahead of you. I see what road you are taking with your work oppurtunity… By all means bravo…. But in the future you shall realize it’s main flaw yet.
What good is a life of success when you cannot share it with your loved one who is the best.
I didn’t want or need you to drive me anywhere, trust me life gave me my whil, I just wanted you to say hi every morning before you left the house and say goodnight every evening. Instead you chose to drive by.

PS:
Should have listened to the song on tumblr page. I guess now instead of following it’s lyrics I am made to enjoy the beat.
Take a listen maybe you see that I did understand and you can thank Bree for giving me that song too.

Thank You

Brandon "C Fresh" Jones — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 22:21:29 +0000

I would like to take a minute to say thank you to all the people who read my blogs lately and to the people who leave me comments and messages letting me know they enjoy my writings.
It was funny cause I did this basically as a form of venting but have come to touch peoples minds and hearts which has always been a goal of mine throughout life. I use to be an active member among my peers and my community and I have let that get away from me. I was focused on my needs instead of my future. Things are getting back on track. Time to go for the gold now, and take control of my life. Im all about me but I will always look to help others before myself. Thats how God would have me do. The greatest reward is spreading to others and not expecting anything in return.

Also I will continue to spread my word through tumblr as well peoples. (I’ve had it ppl before anybody I just never used it lol.. it was home to all my tweets lol) Miss Bree Deacofff has convinced me to revamp my page and follower her (lol) so I might as well put the page to use. Mainly it will have the same post as this page but maybe more pics and a music player on it. Yea!!!! Here is the link: http://lelotp247.tumblr.com/
Till the next blog enjoy people. Got a busy day ahead with friends and business!!

Is Love Lost?

Brandon "C Fresh" Jones — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 21:43:58 +0000

Today love is a complicated subject. Its painful, its dramatic, and its not the easiest thing to come by. As a good friend of mine once said, “Love… It takes 3 secs to say, 10 mins to explain, and a lifetime to prove.” These 3 phrases in a sense are its general definitions. At least in my mind it is. I really thought I was or had experienced love in my life but its come to my attention it wasn’t that at all. Was it lust? Was it simply filling a gap?Was there anything at all? I leave that to be an unsolved mystery. All I know is I don’t fill right at all. This evenings rays of light have bought me to a placid yet intricate mood, and my lil sis really doesn’t help by adding her wonderful night’s experience too. Not that I am mad at her at all. I’m happy she is experiencing what she feels to be love, I just don’t want to know about it now at the current time. I’m sick of people giving me their definitions of love and then when I expect them to do it they focus on themselves or even lie to my face about other people. Now thats what upsets me. You noticed it rained last night people right? If you haven’t read my blog “The Clouds Misunderstood Tears” I suggest you do.

http://lelotp247.wordpress.com/2010/02/26/the-clouds-misunderstood-tears/

It rained last night because I was hurt and upset and I still am.SHe lead me to a conclusion that i hate to say but it is so true. YOU ARE JUST LIKE MY EX. And I want you to know you have lead me to believe good women are non existent. You can deny it all you want but in a sense you still are that girl from the past that you so proudly feel you are not. You are still her, you just wised up your game. Hate to say it but Sam was right about 1 thing even though she is insane herself. And unfortunately for me there is another you, another sam, another jamilla, another trifling low shallow woman out there preparing to abuse my heart and my love once more. In the words of Amerie, “the tears keep rolling down my face..” or in my case the rain will continue to come down.

Ladies you’ve broken the soul of a man but you have yet to shatter my persistent pursuit for real love. Even if i have to be stabbed in the heart 50 times till my true love comes Ill come to learn from every moment. NO success is reached with out struggle right? So to answer the titles question… Love is not lost, its merely endangered but I am prepared to protect it because it is still within me.

Funny… The rain is pouring down as I speak over my house. “Let it rain on me,” as Ashanti would say.

I Probably Shouldn’t Do This

Brandon "C Fresh" Jones — Fri, 26 Feb 2010 23:22:43 +0000

“Relationship wise, I honestly don’t believe I have time for it. Here I am saying I want everything you can give me and I want to offer you the same, but I have also found myself to want to put a “me” first before any “us”. Whether you can deal with that or not, it’s on you. If I can’t give you what you want, then maybe you and I can’t be.”

I thought…. “love is when you take out the “I” and “Me”?”
“L-O-V-E, that’s 2 less than 3″ right?
Was I sadly mistaken to believe 9 confessions to be to be love? Or were they simply 9 sweet lies? By 2 less than 3 did you mean yourself?

“An anxious heart makes a man weary, but a kind word makes him happy”
Were those words simply to make me happy or was there a larger picture or different goal at hand.

“16. Have a stable, well-working relationship with a significant other without the emotional wrappings or ever-binding stress.”

You want this but dont realize what it takes and what was in front of you.
Anybody can plant a seed in life, but to make the plant grow it needs water and sunshine. It needs love and attention. I was never asking for ya whole day but a short moment out of everyday

“I smile because he’s never going to leave, and that’s just how I want it to be.”

Your right here I never would leave, but i refused to be put in the backseat of your life. I refuse to be lied and put in the dark. When a good girls gone bad she’s gone forever…

“With that being said, time is of the essence. I have little time to spare, so bare with me. If you can’t hang in there with me, then thanks anyways!“

It seems my memory would be just a flash. Thanks Anyways? As if I was merely entertainment. Would you think about me? Or would all the vchats of me singing to you and crying to you simply be a wasted moment of the past? I have been hanging in there, trust me more than you know cause i understand what you are trying to do.

Sad but you were the one who made me believe love was not a fable. But with that blog its my heart you killed like Cain did Able.

Damn you dont even realize what you have done… and you probably wont. Its funny cause I’m typically not the one to trip over little things till I experienced love’s dark side, and I want to thank you before I do leave. You helped me see the finally light with all women and even lead to a new song on my mixtape.

Woman are on and equal level with men, and they wonder where all the good dudes at. We wondering where the good sisters at too. Trust

“She put my number in the rafters I’m retired from her game,
She said thanks anyways and said im the one to blame.
But she bought in a New Jersey which is the reason for my end,
But I shouldnt say end, I’m simply done cause its Finn.”
-Lyrical Essence
She Dont Want A Man, She Was Simply Playing
Thanks to Asher Roth and Keri Hilson for the beat.

SAD THING IS I REALLY WANT TO BE WITH YOU, BUT YOU TAUGHT ME NOT TO LOVE ANYBODY MORE THAN I LOVE MYSELF